About Ari

Welcome to Ari 2.0. LOL

Why the revamp? I’ve decided to focus on various aspects of my identity; not just my psychological disorders. This may make some of my current readers uncomfortable. I apologize now if that is the case for you.

So, how about a bit more in-depth “About Ari”.

Stats:

Relationship Status: Married to a man in May 2009
Gender: Female
Race/Ethnicity: Multi- racial/ethnic – Black (Creole), Irish, Scottish, Welsch, Cherokee (non-citizen), German, French, and just a pinch of Spanish and Mexican
Culture: Mostly influenced by the Matriarchal Black Culture of my father and the Patriarchal Irish Culture of my maternal grandfather, plus the Mexican Culture I grew up around throughout school years
Socioeconomic Status: Lower-Middle Class
Education: Master’s Degree
Religion: Pagan
Health Issues: GERD, IBS, Asthma, Raynaud’s Phenomenon
Psychological Issues: Bipolar NOS, unconfirmed Borderline Personality Disorder, ADHD, past ED
Sexuality: Unclassified

Autobiography

I will try to keep this surface level as to not unnecessarily hurt important people throughout my life.

I grew up in Southern California. Growing up I was the oldest of three. In fourth grade my parents separated, and six months later divorced. My mother came out as a lesbian and entered a relationship with a family friend. Growing up we didn’t have a whole lot of money. Sometimes there wasn’t a whole lot of food, but I’ve since figured out that that was probably a result of my father’s depression after the divorce. My father has admitted that he became a “rage father” after the divorce. I spent much of my younger years afraid of my father and feeling like the second mother for my younger siblings. I started babysitting my siblings at the age of 9, which I later found out was actually illegal. We once had CPS called on us, but my father explained that away. My grandmother was an integral part of my growing up.

Meanwhile my mother went through her own depression and was really finding herself. She found paganism (a drastic change from the Roman Catholicism I was raised with). My siblings acted out with her a lot, and admittedly so did I. I think sometimes we were a little more than she could psychologically handle. My mother lived at “the edge of the ghetto”. Most dinners with her were FMW hot dogs and FMW macaroni and cheese. Cheddarwursts were our favorite treat!

***Possible Trigger*** In school I was teased a lot, which didn’t help the depression that sank in (almost permanently) in 5th grade. I tried to runaway in 6th grade, but my mother’s girlfriend came to the door before I was out the window. (I also once had to drag my brother back into the house when he tried to run away). I also took a knife to my heart in front of my sister. I’m sure it scarred her. (Later I would repeatedly drag her from the balcony in my mother’s apartment). So my battle with mental illness began in 5th grade (at least) and went largely untreated until I was 21. My memory is always of suicidal depression, but looking over my old journals I can see the beginnings of bipolar disorder as early as 7th grade.

***End Trigger***

Since childhood I have made some (kind of) life-long friends. I’m married, which I never thought would happen. My father remarried in 2001, and I now have 5 siblings. My mother married in…God she’s gonna kill me I can’t even remember. I guess her wife just feels like she’s always been there. (I don’t care what the law says, they’re married!) I have 3 cats and 2 dogs. I was working in higher education in the Midwest but am now working retail. I still deal with the effects of mental illness.

Well, there’s a quick synopsis. I like to talk about myself if you couldn’t tell! šŸ™‚ If you’re intrigued and would like to learn more, I guess you’ll have to read my blog!

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Comments
  1. falloutmommy says:

    Have been reading through some of your posts.. I don’t want to spam your comment boxes, but just wanted to say that I REALLY relate to most of what you have written, If you ever wanna talk/compare war stories (haha) leave me a message on my blog (Rainy Day Ramblings) or send me an email – rainydayramblings@att.net

    • arifaery says:

      Okay, this is waaay late for a response. But I’m really glad (?) that you find some value in my blog. I’m not so glad that you can relate, but if you must I’m glad you are able to find it in this blog.

      Must visit your blog. Hmm…continue typing up boring notes or explore a new blog.

      Decisions, decisions…

  2. Lauren says:

    Hi, I just found your blog! I have been diagnosed with Borderline Personality Disorder, depression, and social anxiety. Last year, I started an organization for anybody affected by BPD, and I just added your blog to our blogroll (http://ontheborderlineblog.wordpress.com)!

    Stay in touch if you’d like, my facebook profile is http://facebook.com/bpdawareness.

    -Lauren

    • arifaery says:

      Hi Lauren,

      Thank you so much for adding me to your blogroll! I will definitely have to check out yours.

      As far as facebook, I try to stay pretty anonymous as I have quite a bit to lose if I’m ever found out. But I have been thinking about creating a pseudonym account. Hmm…I sense a poll.

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